I am sitting here. At the phone. This is the phone where I announced a child was dying. Lauchie. I didn't know him well. But he is a huge part of me now. I was sitting at the craft table making David his 100th spongebob when Lara came over to me and said 'we need to call someone' and ran off. I turned around and Lauchie was lying down his Dad looking concerned. Lauchie started crying, like he had a little fall. I looked at my feet. Blood. From where? I look at Lauchie about 4 meters away. He's bleeding. My body kicks right into action. It's like a trance state but without the peace. Like I'm spinning off into space, the only thing holding me to earth is my determination to help. That happens in an instant. That instant feels like a slow 10 minutes but the next 10 minutes feel like an instant. Lara's at the phon 'who do I call?' she calls a code blue - or is it MET? - Dad screams for a fist aid kit I grab it and fumble fumblefumble fucking hands sta...
This is real This is so real it's unreal My chest won't stop My heart can't stop These are things dreams try to be Whichis why it is so unreal But the things that I feel Are to visceral to ignore. as the little whims, I'm sure, you feel the string that connects our hearts, we can't forget even though we live so far away It tugs my butterflies so they fly backwards Backwards Butterflys Because I miss you Tumbling heart Because I feel you From so far away Perfection doesn't exist I know this But why do I find more That I can't ignore as so totally you.
When you put your arm around me that's when I knew Walk through the streets, lights glaring that's when it was true You're lying on the bed watching me come over I take my time, go a little slower We live for each other just for one night We work for each other just for one night I want to drink your smell I want to Pour yourself over me and let me feel love Time to go and I'm clear but I still hear your love and smell your skin and it brings me back in But now I remember your eyes, how they look away and I can't seem to find love in the same way If we can find love for one night why not forever? Do we choose to shut out what we want? Do we choose our fate or have we no control? Your perfect smell, the haze of love is replaced by my memory of what I did wrong
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